Merry Christmas?

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim

 In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

   

    As festive season approaches, I can see there are many issues on Muslims wishing those who are celebrating "Merry Christmas" or attending parties held by friends on christmas (note: NOT CELEBRATING OR HOSTING A PARTY). One i had read from twitter is that a woman who wear a long veil (tudung labuh) was with her son at the mall and there were Santa Claus and christmas props there. When "Santa" offer the little boy candy, the woman immediately pull her son away and made a face. Then she said "Kami tak sambut krismas dik. Itu amalan kafir" I understood what she said was true but WHAT'S WITH THE ATTITUDE? I mean, someone has offered you candy. Food. Bukan rezeki ke tu? Kalau mmg taknak pun, smile and say "minta maaf ye dik, kami tak sambut krismas" . To me, this is what you call muslim extremist bcs you're being rude. Try to stop and think. FIKIR WEH FIKIR Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. akan buat camtu tak ? Would he, gracious as he is, do that to a person offering candy to his child? 

  Next, wishing Merry Christmas and attending a Christmas Party. Ada 2 hukum about this. One is Haram , and another Harus. Haram is bcs it's like you're condoning the fact that they are following the wrong faith and apparently egging them on. Harus is bcs Islam is about PEACE . We live in a multi-racial and multi-religious country. They wish us well for our celebration, we wish them well for their celebration. Islam requires Muslims t respect the faith of others. Even the Prophet himself allowed a Christian delegation to celebrate their religious celebration in the mosque. If invited to a party, you can either say yes or no. But if you do say yes, just be aware if there are activities that go against our religion. That too I'm sure isn't much of a problem bcs Malaysians already know the basics of Islam. No touching between men and women , must only consume Halal food and pray at certain times, 5 times a day. 

 But i have to state that HOLDING a christmas (or any non- muslim religious events) party is Haram. Yes HARAM

   Either option you choose, always be polite. Show the ways of our prophet, show the ways of Islam. Isn't that dakwah too? I'm a little affected by this controversy because I'm Muslim but my family celebrates Christmas. I know my limits and they know mine. The thing is, Christmas has become a secular holiday in Malaysia. But Allah knows best, and I'm still learning. Just my thoughts on this issue is all. Everyone keeps peace in their own way, either being polite to accept or decline. Only Allah knows yr niat and Allah is the greatest of all forgivers.

Assalamualaikum,

Midnight rage

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim

 In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

I should be unpacking right now. But being me, i procrastinate (hehe) so i scrolled twitter and saw a retweet on this picture

 And i was absolutely furious.

Why? Because they make Allah seem so unforgiving, and that is an attribute He has that is repeated multiple times in the Holy Quran. Allah is the Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim, Al-Ghaffar and Al-Ghafoor. The most gracious , compassionate, the ever and all-forgiving. Who are we, insignificant humans in this vast world that Allah has made, to say that HE DOES NOT ACCEPT THE WORSHIP OF A WOMAN WHO DOES NOT COVER HER AURAH ? HOW DARE YOU?

And how dare you imply that only WOMEN who do not cover their aurah are punished? Have you forgotten that men too have aurah ? Please, i beg of you as a fellow muslim, to mean that Allah will not accept acts of worship from MUSLIMS that do not cover their aurah DURING SALAT. Because if you mean i what most people have been thinking, Allah doesnt accept salah of that girls who do not wear hijab i would slap you hard on the face.twice. , I pray that Allah will let you see the light. For i have not found any dalil, hadith or ayat from the Quran that says/imply so.

I urge all of you to check on a the kesahihan of a Islamic fact before retweeting , sharing on FB or forwarding it on Whatsapp. You might be spreading lies. Now that we're in that topic, i want to address and issue that has became a pet peeve of mine (beside people using "do" in sentences that do not need it) the people actually believe the BS so called facts that are forwarded in Whatsapp.

This one particular message got my nerves . It's about Christians' Holy Water. They say that if you drink it, it will make you murtad and unable to speak the syahadah. What's even more unbelievable? That these gullible muslims believe that this Holy Water is made from "air persetubuhan antara Father(priest) dan Sister(nun) .

What. Were. You. People. Thinking. First of all, priest and nuns arent supposed to have any sexual contact with ANYONE. Second, it being product of dirty materials makes it black magic and BLACK MAGIC ≠ CHRISTIANITY . How ignorant can you be? It all comes down to our faith in Allah. If there was such a thing, I think most Malaysians have already Murtad.

Correct me if I'm wrong. kk sleepy now.

Good night people, Assalamualaikum

A Book's Cover

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim 

In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

Once again, pouring my thoughts in this long winded blog. I have dwelled on this matter for a very long time, which had occurred to me before i was a revert. 

Being judgemental. 

Had the title of the post make sense? Don't judge a book by it's cover. I have thought it was human nature, to judge on first impressions and appearances. But i have realize that Malaysia typically focus on one : piousness (kealiman). And the piousness we speak of mostly only revolve around whether or not you don a hijab, regardless the length of it. As long as we don't see your hair. Anyone else seem to think this is wrong??

Personally  i have gone through this. Even before I officially reverted, I had long start to pray to get used to doing what's wajib. Naturally when i go out with my parents i would not have a hijab on my head, though i daresay the rest of my clothing are quite modest. I would slip away from my parents (sometimes with great difficulty) to sneak to the surau. Unfortunately, these are the most uncomfortable times because the women there would look at me as if to say "dah la tak pakai tudung, ada hati nak solat" which rendered me VERY uncomfortable. It may be just my  mind going wild, because it could be possible that they look at me for i have traces of "chineseness" etched on my face (i have no idea how i looked like to them, but that is my impression)

What I'm trying to say is, you never know what that person is going through at the moment to immediately draw conclusions. She may be like me, a to-be revert that do not have the luxury to wear hijab, or a lady who is trying to change from mini skirts to long jeans, if you know what i mean. For all we know, the lady's family and friends may come from less religious backgrounds, rendering her almost impossible to wear a hijab without getting taunt "sejak bila jadi ustazah ni" even if she's only wearing a shorter-than-average hijab.

I have also seen many keyboard warriors discrediting Muslim women's achievements "Berjaya tak guna jugak kalau tak pakai tudung". I am not justifying their actions of not complying to what Allah has asked us to do, but them not doing it give us absolutely no right to belittle them. They may have a closer bond to Allah than many of us. Therefore, forgive me for quoting Miley Cyrus "Only God can judge us" which is true to every word. I regret some Malaysians exhibiting their holier-than-thou attitude. Nasihat ? Of course. Do it privately. They are stubborn? There are still many ways to change them before resorting to public humiliation. Hidayah tu Allah je boleh bagi. Du'a is the still the strongest of all weapons.

Believe me, if you have been gossiping about someone and how they handled the situation, Allah will put you in the same situation to make you understand, and unsurprisingly, you will behave exactly as the person you have been gossiping. Allah is Wise and the Almighty. I know because I have been through this many times, and I thoroughly regret my actions of judging someone. Alhamdulillah, Allah had let me see the light.

This post is as much of an advice to me as it is to you readers. Always think before you judge. I vouch for the phrase Husnudzon. For a book's cover can only tell so much about a person. I hope with this post, there will be lesser hate. For the world can do without it.

Assalamualaikum,

My life after (Part 2)

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim 

In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

I remember days before reverting where I would imagine what would happen when I did embraced Islam. Maybe i was overthinking, because the imaginative senarios would involve cold shoulders from my family and non-muslim friends. Things that they might gossip about me. But when i finally did revert, i thought nothing of these. I just managed "Alhamdulillah, at least that now there is a possibility that I wouldn't go to Hell." 

In Allah power, everything was relatively easy. I told my then non-muslims dorm mates in UPM's college about my faith and they received it gracefully. My parents, as i have written in previous post, weren't as graceful but as time goes, with many explanations from both me and my brother (he has  finally chosen a name ! Adam Yusof ) they begin to accept and are extremely tolerable to our new lifestyles. 

There was one time when my brother and I are at home during Hari Arafah and my brother wanted to puasa sunat. At 8am, my dad bought all of us nasi lemak. My brother, Vynson Adam decline the nasi lemak and said he wasnt hungry and will eat it for dinner. I immediately knew what was going on so i told my dad , while we were alone , that Adam was fasting. My dad said:

 "Why would you hide it ? Just tell me la! There's nothing wrong with fasting." 

This was surprising to me because my dad was of Catholic upbringing and was baptized when he was a baby in Sarawak, as all (or most) of my cousins in Sarawak has. At the first few weeks of my reversion, my dad showed a little resistance compared to my mum, who gave me full support after understanding that embracing Islam was my decision, and only mine. I guess it was partly because of his belief in Christianity. I have always wondered why i wasn't baptized, but i never got around to asking. Now i just joke with my dad that all of his kids wants to revert (meimei has said "nak masuk islam like zhezhe(me)" but she's too young to decide. but inshaa Allah she will to!) because he didn't baptized us from the start. 

What really caught me off guard was when i have to attend a family dinner (mind you, chinese family dinners mean the whole big family) in my hijab. I told my dad about my fears and he looked me dead in the eye and said "Be proud of who you choose to be, like i am proud of you" *sobsob* *insert crying emoticon* I love them , I love both my parents dearly. Even more after i have reverted.

Assalamualaikum 

ps, here's a screenshot of my mum being adorable about buying me a sejadah

Dogs ??? ASTAGHFIRULLAH SISTURR HARAM ! (edited)

Bismillah hir Rahman nir-Rahim

In the Name of God, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,

I feel this topic too sensitive for the Malaysian Muslim community, because of many reasons. Mainly for their prejudiced view on this. Some prove very narrow-minded and i trust, no matter how many opinions they hear, they will stick to theirs. Now, I'm not saying they are wrong in the same way they wouldn't say I'm right. Nevertheless, I intend to write my opinions here, as we have the right to freedom of speech correct? So, here goes.



A number of people has said that it is haram to touch dogs. I, on the other hand, disagree. It is DEFINITELY NOT haram to touch dogs, but it should be common knowledge that in Malaysia, it is najaasah , or 'najis' where you have to sertu(wash 7 times, onece with dirt and 6 with clean water). I see that countrymen make a huge fuss about touching dogs compared to touching the non-mahram and smoking. Why is it such a crime? Can you wash away your sins by sertu-ing after touching you non-mahram? This is the topic that made me think twice about reverting before this, as i see many Muslim being cruel to dogs to which i do not like. This too has gave a bad name for Islam to the non-muslims. Is that not a sin? Being cruel and hurting Allah's creation? Astaghfirullah hal azim.



Bearing my hijab, I have worked and volunteered in SPCA many times , where i have to be in close contact with dogs. This has earned me many warm smiles (And occasional odd stares) from the people of other religions. They ask me questions and i answer them. Honestly i consider them as dakwah, in Shaa Allah. I pray to Allah that what i am doing is right, and that if im wrong, He will show me the right way. As i am still learning , i hope that you readers could comment if i were to type something wrong. Help your sister out here.



I have done my research about this , asking around, looking through the Internet. and i have found that if i were to work with dogs, and i am allowed (the opinion of a few ustaz) that i follow mazhab Maliki for this certain part of the religion (working with dogs), as long as i go thoroughly through the whole topic. So to speak, master it if i can to ease my complications, as islam is easy. i am definitely not saying that i take this lightly, because as long as i am not completely sure of what i am doing , i will continue to sertu everytime i need to pray. Pray for the best for me, and that if i am wrong, Allah will open my heart to see it. I'm not a really good explain-er so bear with me if you dont understand or is furious at what im saying(typing) and drop me a message .



Assalamualaikum

Self-reminder 1

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim 

In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

I was reading "The meaning of the Holy Quran" a few minutes ago and came across this

Surah[4] Al-Nisa

148.Allah loves not that evil should be noised abroad in public speech, except where injustice has been done, for Allah is He who hears and knows all things

This ayat got me thinking about my sins of talking about others, daily. At first, my only thought about this was "ya Allah , aku mengumpat banyak ni" After staring at my room wall for a few minutes (no,the wall wasn't interesting at all) i thought of the retweets i made on Twitter, sometime thing that I find funny or ridiculous then it hit me. Doesn't that go into the category of "...noised abroad in public speech..." ? Astaghfirullah , it's so easy to commit a sin these days. You don't even give it a second thought because we are already USED to it.

I then began to do some reading and researching and found that this ayat refers to a few actions 

(1).Evil deeds are glorified to the public (in cinemas, novels , or drama)

(2).Gossip(foolish , does no good and hurts people's feelings)

(3).Malevolent slander or libel (to harm a person reputation or injure them in some way. In short, sebarkan aib)

(4). Public rebuke or correction, without malice (peaceful demonstration/rallies)

1, 2 , and 3 are absolutely forbidden(haram) but (4) may be a person of authority who has done wrong or injustice , must be correctly openly, to prevent it's recurrence. It may also be a person of no authority, to help someone who has been wronged. BUT doing it with any other niat (to bring down a person) the exception does not apply. Allah is the All-knowing

I remembered me retweeting something about a WeChat user's grammar, while he is heartbroken over breaking up with his gf. It just occurred to me that i was really insensitive . And getting him laughed at as well. It really made me feel bad. what if i was him ? Nauzubillah min zalik. I believe " kalau kita tak sebarkan aib org , Allah jaga aib kita" for all of us have faults. And if i had talked bad about any of you readers, i deeply apologize. I will do my best never to repeat that horrible mistake again. Astaghfirullah ;(

then came this ayat

149.whether you publish a good deed or conceal it or cover evil with pardon, verily Allah does blot out(sins) and has power (in the judgement of values)

So no matter what you do, make sure you have the right niat before doing it. For Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum

PS most info are from The Meaning Of The Holy Quran , translation and notes from 'Abdullah Yusuf 'Ali and some of my personal thought. If there are a few thing that i wrote wrongly about please tell me. 

My life after being "reborned"

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim 

In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

Assalmualaikum, 

Before converting, I have always thought that it would be difficult. Telling my parents, my family, my friends, how am I gonna cover my aurat. 

But after, I honestly think Allah has given my strength, as i have told my non-muslim room mates about it. And alhamdulillah, they are very understanding people. For that i am really grateful . 

Next comes my parents. They have become a source of worry from the beginning of my curiosity towards Islam. About 5 days after i recited my syahadah, I whatsapp (hahahahah too scared to do it on call or face to face) my both my parents saying that "Im thinking of converting"

...

and they freaked out

Thus begins the atomic bomb of questions, misinterpreted facts, countless fears, and confusion between adat melayu and Islam itself. Lemme give you a few examples during the call

"Why? Who pressured you? Is it the environment? Are you gonna wear like a ninja?"

"What? Why wear socks ? Huh? Gloves also ah ? AIYO ! That's like a ninja already! "

*dad from background* 

"YOU WEAR LIKE NINJAA LATER THEY DON'T LET YOU STAY WITH US !  KENNOT STAY WITH NON MUSLIM PARENTS. THEN THEY PERSUADE YOU TO GO TO ISIS, GO SYRIA !"

major facepalm

"Not modest meh wear baju kurung only ? why have to wear tudung ? Some malays don't wear tudung what . why you wanna wear?" haih.

"Already stated mah guys have to lower their gaze. You dont need to cover la !"

After a lengthy explanation, they finally relaxed. I can practice what i want, but say i should wait one more year before my syahadah (oops). I dont mean to lie but ... Tipu sunat tak ni ? Allahu Alam

if anyone have some advice, i would love to hear it.

The journey to the new begining

Bismillahir rahman nir rahim 

In the name of Allah , the most compassionate and merciful

I'm quite sure most of you are having many questions, as to why i have so suddenly(?) reverted to Islam. Well then , I shall just tell everything here, so that I wouldn't have to repeat-type the story over whatsapp *insert laughing with tears emoticon* To those who have asked for the story before the start of this blog , this is a an even  longer version of it

So , here goes.

In primary school , i vaguely remember my mum turning around from the car front passenger seat telling me,
"If you wanna find a boyfriend , don't find malay. But if you want to marry malay, make sure he has a lot of money. Because when he wants to marry another , at least you can survive with the money. They can marry 4 wives !"
Now before you judge my mum(haha), i would like to tell that this is how most chinese think. Money is god. And that is it's not easy to live in a country where you're second class citizens. Up till primary school, I have been fed with "They give soalan bocor during agama class!" "Maybe your friends have special answers" (rest be assured , i have now told my parents and the rest of my chinese family that it is not true). During this time as well, I have always wondered about why they have to cup their hands during Du'a , and wipe their face after "Amin"

In SM Sains Selangor, I like seeing my friends solat . The unity of jemaah just mesmerize me, the way sunsets and a sky full of stars do. This is the place where i ask questions about Islam and try wearing tudung, so much that my parent never question my motive of wearing anymore. In my form 5 days, I bought a book on how to perform salat. All the while having intention to convert when i am perfect  can do and perform what's wajib. On the last day of school, i received a beautiful blue Quran, a cute hello kitty headscarf and a pin from Ustazah Mazination. Terharu sangat !

After SPM, Ustazah ajak pergi somewhere and i felt like it was too rushed. so i backed off a little. Berat sikit nak solat. Nak habiskan one rakaat tu felt soooooooo long. At that one time i felt like i wanted to give up , i saw a tweet that goes "Masa solat la masa manusia berehat" and that tweet was so sudden cause i dont follow the person who tweeted it , nor retweeted by anyone i follow. Maybe a coincidence , tapi to me it feels like Allah nak tunjuk kuasa dia.

In UPM, it was on a Monday. I puasa sunat on that day tapi ada classmate minta belanja, so to serumpun we went. After revealing that i am actually fasting, we talked about islam and about my niat to masuk Islam. The person then told me that "What if kau tak sempat, and ajal kau dah sampai?"
I actually have been told that a few times , but it hasn't had any effect on me, even this is time. So i just swept that under the carpet. Then on Tuesday, we were having Agriculture lecture , and the Dr. was talking about Agro Camp(which i can't attend as im working during the same weekend) and i had a sudden thought. What if, there was a reason behind me not being able to attend the camp ? What's the reason ? I now have a very strong urge to recite my syahadah. To make it official between me and Allah.(This is what i take as my "Hidayah")
   And so I told that same person and he (was kinda shocked) passed my number to a few sisters who he had contacts of that he thinks can guide me. After a few convos through whatsapp, and a short meet up on Friday, I have decided to recite my syahadah on Saturday during subuh. Everything felt so fast, and so easy. I was relieved when i recited my syahadah. A burden finally gone. Alhamdulillah